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|Thursday, November 9th, 2006|
|At least I can dream
I really wish I could write, it would make essays a hell of a lot easier. I'm a visual person, and finding the right combination of words to answer a question really isn't one of my strengths. I really do think I could answer the question more easily if I could represent it visually. Y'know.. with colors, diagrams, possibly a stick figure here or there. Somehow I don't think that would go over too well with my teachers. Current Mood: rushed
|Sunday, October 22nd, 2006|
|pass it along
Today I found one of those godly awesome large sharpies in the side door of my car. I didn't put it there o.O
I think it's good karma. Current Mood: hopeful
|Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006|
I'm not that excited for school to start this time. Catching up with everyone that I didn't get to see much during the summer is always good, but I actually got to spend a lot of time with my friends. And for the first time in a while, I have a boyfriend.. haha. So it's definitely been a wonderful 3 months. It's weird how in the upper school it feels like coming back from a 2 week vacation. Or y'know, maybe it's just me.
bleh. I was sick the first day and got attacked by teh Harris when I came in to get my schedule, info and whatnot. Bonnie away! I miss the seniors. psh, ditching us for their colleges. hmmm.. yes, that's it for now. end of update. Current Mood: excited
|Wednesday, July 5th, 2006|
Hooray 4th of july!
I love sneaking out; good thing the matriarch picked tonight to work a night shift. Rowland and I got uber lost on the way to Ricky's partymajig. First Rowland couldn't find my house, then mapquest confused us, then we didn't know how to pump gas, then mapquest lied to us and gave us the wrong address. damn technology! It took us an hour to go from my house to Ricky's, but it was an adventure! And it only took like 15 or 20 mins on the way back, go figure. Yes we're awesome, thanks for asking.
I got home a while ago; but now I'm clean and not reeking of fireworks, which is a pretty good feeling. Bed sounds wonderful right about now. Current Mood: mischievous
|Friday, June 23rd, 2006|
I got my car yesterday =)
it's a dark blue honda civic coupe. the salesperson said they'd have it about 2 weeks ago. since it took longer than expected for it to arrive, they tinted the windows for us.
I put a frog keychain and a swirly yellow thing on the carkey. insurance would be lovely right about now, cause I sort of can't drive it til I get some.
damnit! Current Mood: grateful
|Tuesday, June 20th, 2006|
I've forgotten just how giddy and excited watching anime could make me. it reminds me of that summer I downloaded at least 30 total episodes of anime shows on a dial up connection. now that's
dedication. That was the same summer I attempted to teach myself Japanese. it was going pretty well too until school started up. damnit!
in any case, YouTube is godly.
hooray for rediscovering giddiness, now I'm off. Current Mood: giddy
|Saturday, June 17th, 2006|
|I've forgotten just how wonderful grass and warm concrete feel under my feet.
I worked in the yard today, and it was kinda nice.
Driving is going great. and my summer is definitely not sucking =)
And I think I had one of my lightbulb realization things. it happened when I was on myspace of all places. [[oh god...]] anyway, the more people try to be different supposedly claiming that they hate labels (xx_DonT CAll mE_SCeNE!!1!1) the more they label themselves. And I s'pose if they want so badly to be unique, then they should just quit worrying about what everyone else does/thinks and be their own person. right? but no matter how much people like that claim that they're not trying to fit in, that's exactly what they are
trying to do. Not conforming in order to conform. paradox? myspace is pretty funny sometimes.
if you're reading this, go taka a look at [THIS]
community. it's really awesome/addictive. Current Mood: full
|Monday, June 5th, 2006|
|life is good
I feel like it's been too long since I updated, time to fix that. I can't believe I've only been out of school for a little over a week. And it didn't hit me until a few days after we got out that it was actually summer, as opposed to a brief two-week vacation or something. Things I've been up to: party - woohoo, shopping, drivers ed, shows, mini-con, and just relaxing at home enjoying summer. oh, and I'm a dumbass. why? for going to mini-con with about $25 left over after paying admission. keep in mind that there was amazing anime merch everywhere and I pretty much wanted to buy out the fucking place. but that's ok, at least I had enough to get a sexy wall scroll and partake of the most complicated soda ever invented. I can't complain.
everything has been wonderful
and today I had my first behind the wheel driving instruction. ohhhh yes. lookout, tulsa. I did surprisingly well the first time, I have to say. Current Mood: pleased
|Saturday, May 20th, 2006|
went to mayfest tonight with jessica, katie, and jessica's friend, taylor. SOOOOO much fun. I got a henna tatoo =] lets hope this one lasts a while. I had an interesting stroke of luck today. We were sitting outside watching a band play at mayfest, and I was likin it - they sounded familiar to me somehow. then after one of their songs they were like "we're Aqueduct" and my reaction was something like O.O I'd heard them before and liked them quite a bit, and then I got to see them live. fun stuff. I also got hit on by a creepy drunken asian - twice
. oh, and katie and I were checked out by creepy old men. Big gatherings sort of irritate me sometimes.
|Wednesday, May 17th, 2006|
|realizations are happy
Today is the last of my horrible F days. EVER
. they go a little something like this: 3 mod bio, 1 free mod, english, euro, french, 1 free mod, drwaing, band, algebra II. And it just hit me today that we won't be doing any more labs in biology (I think?) which means that I no longer have to put up with Tanya - THANK GOD. I think having a rock as a lab partner would have done me more good. and I bet the rock would have a higher IQ. so no more listening to her idiotic questions to which the answers would be obvious if she'd just read the damn packet, no more doing all the work because she doesn't know how to, and no more having to cover up my work as I'm doing it to guard her wandering eyes. Oh, and if I have the misfortune of getting stuck with her in chemistry next year, Im gonna choke a bitch. that, and switch sections ^.^ Current Mood: relieved
|Monday, May 15th, 2006|
|sweet sixteen, bitches
Hannah may have partially fucked up my birthday last monday with her latest attention getting idea at my expense - announcing my birthday on the wrong day, but everyone made my sweet sixteen really special today =) Ky made a non-sucking birthday announcement for me, I got gummy frogs from eric, and everyone was really amazing (even more than usual). My horoscope for today said 5 stars, how fitting =) I decided to go to borders after school where I ran into sara, allie, jessi, luke, philip, susannah, and lissie - whom I havent seen in a couple of weeks, which is much too long. yay coincidence! Then my dad and I went home. he surprised me with a cake that looked a little something like this:
it was yummy ^.^ I had a couple of birthday cards waiting for me on my desk, so I opened them, and then I put on my socks with little sushi rolls on them. just in case you can't tell, I'm having a really
wonderful day. And yesterday, I found out that the car we were supposedly buying for my dad is actually my birthday present O.O shocked? you betcha. parents are pretty crazy sometimes, especially considering the fact that I stil
don't have my permit. the matriarch wouldn't let me take drivers ed during the school year, thinking it would "interfere" with my school work. but may 31st/june 1st is approaching fast. gogo permit! so... new '06 honda civic coupe. metallic blue, I believe? if Jessi is reading this, she and my other younger-buddies are going to be getting plenty of rides from me next year =D Current Mood: ecstatic
|Saturday, May 13th, 2006|
|Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male|
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve
yes, that sounds like me =)
Today I introduced a friend to the brian peppers videos on ytmnd. I've spread the joy, and that makes me feel all fuzzy inside. Current Mood: groggy
|Sunday, May 7th, 2006|
|love in it's purest form
My saturday was spent at shades of brown for about 2 hours drinking a particularly good chocolate/irish cream mocha and reading a really good book. on a fucking rainy day. perfect saturday? I think so.
And all is well in my life right now. Some people suck, but not the ones that matter. The rest of the people, I love. I have this image of people as jelly beans or something. the icky flavored ones outnumber the tasty ones, but they're so tasty that they make up for their small quantity.
:edit: "You don't know what you got 'til it's gone."
yes, it's cliché, but so true. my internet went out saturday evening. after struggling with it for half an hour trying to get it back even for a little while, I gave up. so no internet radio, no myspace, no livejournal, no downloading music. I may have had a few other things to do as well online, but that's beside the point. after a few hours, I remembered that my dad still had internet on his laptop (mooching off the neighbors' wireless ftw). So I got on his computer and my reaction was somewhat like this: O.O
It hit me. how much I use the computer, and that it's a luxury I should appreciate, and that dependence is a very, very bad thing that will surely come back to bite you in the ass sooner or later. Current Mood: content
|Friday, May 5th, 2006|
|people might make nice pets.
There really is nothing like going to borders on a friday and spending a couple of hours reading manga and indulging in goodies with friends. my week was busy as usual, so that was some much needed relaxation time. then on the way home...
I got the goddamn weirdest phone call from mucci. funny/random/entertaining, calling right after his nap. he claimed he was sober, but you would assume otherwise from hearing him. silly brian =)
Oh, and it's sort of crossed my mind, but todays discussions etc. made me realize:
our school is populated by more ignorant bastards than can be considered healthy. it's actually kind of depressing sometimes. I consider myself an open minded person, and hope that my being this way will somehow make for a better environment...? and then I feel like any effort I make to be accepting is in vain because a few assholes come along and shatter this so-called "community". Ohhhhh, and wanna know what really
makes me happy? Me, and I'm sure others, have been accused of being antisocial for spending so much time in the mini commons (thanks, mr spencer - way to make me feel good about myself). how can they fucking blame us?? Just listen to some snippits of conversation next time you walk through the commons. Here's a sample: gossip, racism, more gossip, misogyny, homophobia, random other forms of bigotry, "hey, are we gettin drunk this weekend or what?" ridicule, pressure, etc.
And I'm antisocial for not wanting to associate myself with any of that
? Then that must make me a goddamn recluse. (note: by no means am I referring to every single person in the commons, because of course not everyone contributes to what I'm complsining about.)
Oh lookee, another rant. that's two days in a row. buuuuuuut.. the borders trip by far makes up for the other grievances, so all in all, I'm not feelin' too bad. and I'm about to curl up and enjoy a good book. life is good sometimes. Current Mood: disappointed
|Thursday, May 4th, 2006|
|je suis paresseuse
When we want to get pumped up and overall motivated, what do we do? We listen to drunken finnish music, that's what we do! And I must say, it's helping. I'm so
ready to write my french essay that was due 2 days ago that I haven't felt like doing until now!
Also, Prashant is an arrogant fuck. I can do without the holier-than-thou attitude. Contrary to his belief, he's actually not that much better than everybody else. Walking around with the plastic gun aiming at whatever moves, fyi: assasin is over. and showing off gets old after a while, no? And the *sigh
* thing... get over the fact that you're not a fuckintg superhero - you don't
need a catch phrase. Maybe the whole "I am God" thing is funny at first when it's treated as a joke, but not when anyone is conceited enough to take it seriously. You'd think he'd get he message when people start ignoring him, but apparently not. I guess even "God" can be oblivious. hmmmm, I s'pose that's it. The way he's been acting lately vexes me, and a good ranting is just what I needed. Current Mood: productive
|Sunday, April 30th, 2006|
|juxtapose is the new karma
Ohhhhhh, my week was good. it just... was
. brace yourselves for my longest-ever entry.
those words in the subject title came to me. or rather, I came to them. in the study station. cause some poetic soul wrote them on a desk, and I was lucky enough to stumble upon them.
thursday morning, I had an advisor meeting between me, my dad, and Mme Albright. (no, I'm not in trouble this time) My dad was getting pissy with the fact that my schoolnight routine consists of staying up til after 1am doing homework, which is NOT my fault and he has no right to get mad at me because: a) Holland Hall teachers are homework happy, and 2) my mom is a nazi who won't even think of letting me do things with my friends on the weekend unless my grades are good, assignments in, etc. and I kinda, sorta have these things called friends
. and maybe even... yes, a social life
. oh dear! so, I'm pretty much trapped in a lose-lose situation. and in hopes of remedying my time management, I now have 2-3 demand mods 4 times a cycle. not that I'm complaining, cause it's not like full demand or punishment, and who knows - maybe it'll help me. I hope. So anyway, my dad and I walk into the commons this morning to find bubble tape under our feet and an adorable brown doggy running up to us. A very pleasant surprise to someone who's still half asleep. then advisor meeting. then morning meeting. then I got a nifty french award. I placed 3rd in the state and [insert number here, which I forgot] nationally and get to attend some sort of nifty ceremony. speaking of french, I was inducted into the national honor society wednesday. I r teh happies =)
My mom always works on thursdays. always
. which is perfect, cause philip invited me and peepo over after school to watch a movie. donnie darko is the best thing ever. I've seen it 3 times, and it's still not old.
friday = laziness + some homework. today = traditional waffle house breakfast with my dad, then used honda shopping. we're getting another car cause my dad has to rent one whenever he's home, plus I'll be needing one soon anyway. speaking of which, I'm now officially signed up for driver's ed. it's about damn time! thanks for the wait, mommy dearest. may 31st/june 1st. a couple of weeks after my birthday, but I dont care at this point.
I've been so fucking lazy this weekend, it's not even funny. I s'pose I'll cram a bit of algebra in before I go to bed. then tomorrow, I'll attempt to finish everything else. I'm going into super ADD mode and can't get anything done right now, it's driving me crazy. buuuuuut.. I'm getting ADD testing in a week or so. why I've waited til now, I don't know. hopefully it's one step to making things a little easier for me? Current Mood: distressed
|Friday, April 14th, 2006|
I remember the tree outside my window looking like one of the N*Sync members when I was in 4th grade. But now the tree's grown and keeps part of our yard in shade.
I wish I had a lawnchair.
:edit: we picked my dad up from the airport today. and then I confused my mom with a chuck norris joke. it was sort of precious. Current Mood: nostalgic
|Sunday, April 2nd, 2006|
death cab = love
. amazing concert. the drumstick landed just a few feet away from me, but I didnt bother diving into the greedy fanatic pile.
I havent done any homework all weekend. oh, today's gonna be just joyous. damn you, procrastinational habits. Current Mood: determined
|Friday, March 31st, 2006|
|something more exhilarating
whaddya know, I think my eljay just went unanorexic. wonder how long it'll last. in any case, I won't fuck with it anymore today.
euro class = techno rave
. mr sweeney shows up about 10 minutes late. so when I walked into the classroom - lights out, mont dancing/laser pointering with the remote, connor beatboxing, everyone with their phones out spinning them as part of the light show, and then I played some numa numa. hell yes. mr sweeney walked in looking a bit surprised, but he joined the party cause he's cool
I paid chrish $5 so he'd let me straighten his hurr. awwww, he was so gay! and whiny. and embarassed. it provided me with much amusement. but ricky was a fuckface and wouldn't let me do the same to him.
so, I'm pretty psyched for is-as (but I bon't want to fuck anything up on my clarinet, which is probably inevitable). and today was a good day. and me and jessi (proper grammar can die, this is oklahoma) went on a lawn gnome quest, which turned into a wac adventure
(the wac is a great place for adventures btw). and I ran into chris carder yesterday... twice. *shudders* and this semester is going to be a good one - I can feel it. and death cab = tomorrow. and I'm pretty much happy with everything right now, almost. except I miss my dad... a lot
. Current Mood: content
|Monday, March 27th, 2006|
|what are they teaching us nowadays?
I just encountered the funniest passage ever in my euro textbook - it's puntastic!
"The purges touched
persons in all areas of party life. No one can explain why some were executed, others sent to labor camps, and still others left unmolested
I can't believe they'd seriously print that. just thought I'd share it with everyone. Current Mood: giggly